dont read this
im so happy right now. it feels fake. this entire summer has been weird, but for the first time today, i stood back and looked at it. i love it. how can i ever think i have the right to be unhappy, when look what i have been given. there are people out there that dont have water, and i get upset when my day doesn't go as planed. wtf. everyone that has touched me this summer has made me think about things a little different. i love the fact that two different people can look at the same thing and see it completely differently.
was the grand canyon made from a little bit of water and a lot of time
or
a lot of water and a little bit of time.
who knows, its just an example. i do miss my friends that i haven't seen in a while. Heather! this means you! lol. i know your having the time of your life! enjoy it!

on a completely different note, i decided that i have nothing to be upset about. in fact i dont even have the right to be upset. shit happens, yes, and we all have different ways of dealing with it. and im not saying that people shouldn't get angry, or that everyone should just be passive and let shit slide all the time, cuz thats not the way to do it either. you have to stand up for what you think is right, when the time comes, but dont go preaching to those who dont care, and getting your shit in a bundle about it. i truly believe that everyone has the ability to make themselves happy or sad, or upset, or angry, or whatever. and the saying that you need sweet and sour is true, we choose to have both. this entry was stream of consciousness, and was edited and edited...and now i dont even think it says what i wanted it to say in the first place. i need to stop doing that. i write out soooo many entries, just to click close on by browser before updating, i know i shouldn't, but i cant help it.
watch the sunrise, get something pierced , talk to my roommateS (note cap S there are 3) see beauty in everything, spend time with people that mean a lot to me. love every minuet of it. see good movies/listen to good music. drink good wine, fix my head, go to some shows. maybe road trip, do something about this crush, love life, play pool, get good at pool, or something like that. start something. a hobby? write something, eat some good food. make peace. love life, and live